About 42 years ago, I began seriously addressing the major problems. Even during my studies in Freiburg, I had big questions: What is God? Who is God? What is authentic and true truth? At 16, I was already seeking answers about war and God. It seemed to me that all systems were distorted, living in stupidity and blindness. I wanted to understand the ancient and modern wars that have persisted for over 4,000 years.

I searched for clarification and understanding in hundreds of books. I wanted to understand 7,000 years of wars. I wanted to understand the many wars of the past 2,000 years. No one gave me useful answers. Forty years ago, I had already written more than 40 books on the great problems of humanity. At that time, I had also studied the major religions. I intensely examined wars up to the 18th and 19th centuries. At some point, this hot soup became a major problem for me: All systems are trapped in networks. Factually speaking, I could not contribute anything to improving them. This often made me angry: All systems have been dried up, rotted, perverted, and completely distorted for hundreds of years. There was no God to give me advice. There was no one who wanted to understand my search. I had hundreds and many books; all of them seemed pointless.

The world is full of perverse, greedy, sick monsters, obsessed with stealing and controlling everything that can be achieved through murder. Since childhood, I have always had dreams. No one took my dream world seriously. Over the years, I increasingly had dreams about a bleak future. For years and months, I ignored these dreams. I no longer wanted to know anything about these inner sources of dreams. Sometimes it raged inside me: “I can’t do anything!” I also had no money to do anything that could help people escape their inner prisons. Often, I threw away books because no one wanted my work. It was clear to me that I had no power and could do absolutely nothing.

Then I had a dream: “Use your authority.” “You have the sword that no one else has and that no one else will have for 3,000 years.” Honestly, I often had dreams that clearly told me I could or should establish global peace. I sought contacts hundreds of times, but to this day, no one has touched this hot potato.

From the Messenger, September 2024.